HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!!! (safe to say I kind of forgot it was a holiday) After 50 pics of New York City from my mom I'm feeling slightly trunky and super psyched for my next Thanksgiving in NYC the only place to be for turkey day....that being said I can't really complain about where I am, the greatest place on earth!!!
This week was really, really, really, really hard. The kind of hard that leaves you racking your brain for a Plan M because every other idea has fallen through; crazy jealous as you pass yet another eight references to the other Sisters of T for an address that used to be part of our area; and on your knees more then ever pleading for answers from the Lord. I mean we are here to share the gospel with others. Why on earth aren't missions easy!? BUT with all the thinking this week I made quite a few realizations. Where is the success in a unfought battle? Without opposition mission life would just be 2 years without growth and that's exactly the opposite of what I want for my mission.
So with all that said let me tell you how much good comes form the bad. No, it's true, we're still struggling more then ever, but we know there are people waiting and we need to find them and that vision gets us through just about everyday....that and putting our arms around each other as a silent sign that were in this together. I truly believe one of the greatest promises we have of the Lord is that He will always send answers or guides. If we truly analyse every moment of our lives will soon quickly come to realize that there are no bad days, maybe hard moments, but never a bad day. No matter what happens during the day, how many appointments fall, how many people flat out reject us, we still have the opportunity to have an effect on these peoples lives and that's all that really matters in the long run. Hopefully were planting seeds and making a difference for the future. If we accomplish that I can wake up every morning with a huge smile on my face ready for anything!
I found answers with answers this week in a talk called Accepted of the Lord. Its times like this on the mission where you literally analyze every little thing and wonder what on earth it is that I'm doing wrong. But naturally were all going to have low points and it might not mean anything at all. People will ALWAYS have their agency to choose I'm just here to give them another option. The talk outlines three important things to do in times like this that I've seriously been reflecting this week: self reflection to see if you truly have an honest and broken heart, contrite spirit to receive direction and understanding from the spirit, and to observe our covenants no matter the sacrifice (DC 97:8). Having the spirit is the number one way to know you are accepted of the Lord, and without the spirit this work is truly nothing. So I'll do my work for all I'm worth and continue to improve because I'm crazy human and there's always room to change and be better. I truly treasure the spirit that I can feel in the lessons I teach, though they might be few. I feel blessed everyday just for the opportunity to be a missionary cause there is no greater cause in the entire earth.
I also feel super accepted of the Lord this week in my own silly ways. I hope I've explained chump change before (the money I find on the street after we did what the Lord wanted us to do. I consider it a pat on the back from heaven) because this week I found over 70 pesos worth of chump change. I guess more then ever the Lord was looking out for me and just letting me know that He still has an infinite love for me and wants me to feel it!
This Sunday was the Primary Program in church which resulted in attendance of 86 people....there wasn't even room for all of us. Safe to say it was just mind blowing. Our next plan is to figure out how to get those numbers every week. Looks like the Primary might have to start making it a monthly event ;)
Life can never get better then serving others,
Love everyone around you,
Share the real meaning of Christmas (He is The Gift)
So much love,